SIXTY-SEVEN
I am walking back and forth outside the delivery room. My knees are shaking and my heart was pounding. I feel like I’m short of breath because I’m so nervous.
I feel like I’ve been out here for a year but my wife still hasn’t come out. I want to go inside and find out what’s going on inside. But Lauren said I’m not allowed to come in and see her. I can’t see her and just wait outside because they will come out too.
“Fuck, why is it taking so long?” I whispered while walking steadily. I’m nervous and I don’t know what to call my feelings.
“Hey, you might pass out, sit down,” Dylan said to me.
“Ow, drink some water first.” Dave handed me water. My hand trembled as I reached for the water. I could barely drink because it felt like it was blocking my throat and I could feel the water coming back out.
“Calm down.” Dylan’s voice was slightly annoying.
“How can I calm down? The doctor still not coming out?”
“If you don’t calm down there, you will be put in the ward before your wife will come out.” Even Dave was annoyed.
“I got you, bro. I feel you. I felt the same way when I found out that Dane was going to give birth to Ace.” Wallace said and put his arm around me. “That’s just at the beginning, when your wife passed you want to get her pregnant again.”
“Ew!” Dylan and Dave said together and looked at us.
“Just sit down, we’ll get dizzy with you too.” Dylan sat and Dave followed. Wallace also invited me to sit down but I couldn’t do it because when I was about to sit down I just saw my knees shaking.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.
Oh great! So I chose to just stand up and walk around to calm myself down.
“Leave him alone,” Wallace said that’s why they just let me.
This is how you feel while you are waiting for your wife to give birth. It’s like you’re dying of fear and you don’t know what to do. I want to go inside and find out what’s going on but I’m also afraid to witness her condition.
Dane said to give birth quickly. But why have they been inside for over an hour and they haven’t come out yet? Is my wife really okay? Can she really?
As I stood in front of the door of the delivery room, many scenes came to my mind. I remembered what happened then and how Lindsay looked. What happened to her back then? Her death and reviving her. The death of my son that I did nothing about.
Suddenly, the door opened and Keisha Del Valle came out, greeted by the three. I stayed where I was and didn’t move. They were talking but I didn’t join in because I was looking inside the delivery room. I couldn’t even hear what they were talking about but I could see the worry on their faces.
I heard a long beep from the device. I saw inside that they tried to revive Lauren. The other one holds a baby and I assume it’s my daughter, and same as her mother, they tried to revive her too.
“No.” I mouthed. As I see my wife and my child lifeless. “They can’t leave me.”
“Time of death of the mother 06. 22 pm, doc.” The nurse said to the other doctor.
“The baby died upon delivery. Lifeless and no sign of life.”
“Lauren, Avyanna.” I wanted to scream. But no voice came out of my mouth. Tears are slowly falling from my eyes. I feel like I can’t breathe.
No, it’s not possible, my wife and daughter can’t die. They can’t leave me. Lauren promised me that she won’t leave me. She said she will stay. She can’t leave me because she promised.
Why? Why?
“Dale.”
“Dale.”
“Dale.” I looked at the three standing in front of me.
“What happened to you?” Dylan asked as my tears continued to flow. I was also sobbing because of the scene I was seeing.
“My wife and my daughter.” I cried one after the other while looking at them. “Lauren, Avya.” I can not breathe. My chest is tight and my surroundings are spinning.
“He’s hyperventilating.” Wallace took my hand and grabbed some parts and squeezed hard but I couldn’t feel anything because I felt like my whole body was suddenly massaged and there was no air going in and out of my body.
“You can calm down. They are safe.” Dave said and shook me.
“But—but—-” I looked at the door that was now closed. Keisha was no longer with them.
“Visual hallucination due to anxiety,” Dylan said and came closer. “Dale, Lauren is strong, ok. Calm down, nothing will happen to them.”
As Wallace squeezed me, I gradually felt pain. My heart beat faster, the surroundings are okay.
“But why haven’t they come out yet? Why is it taking so long? What happened inside?”
“Dale, it’s like this, based on my experience with our two children, the baby comes out on its own. If you choose to take them out before their time, the mother will get tired, maybe that’s the technique that Lauren used. She let Avyanna come out on her own.”
“Until when?”
“Until Avyanna helps herself to come out.”
“Oh did you hear that? Believe what Wallace said because it has been done twice. And there is a third twin boy.” I never argued with Dylan. Even the truth is that I am still nervous. As long as I don’t make sure they are ok, I can’t rest.
“Don’t overthink. Sit down first.” I just followed what Dave said and just sat down. I feel that all my strength has been exhausted because of what I was feeling earlier.
“Where are they? How are they?” Lauren’s Daddy who just arrived is sweating. He had just come from the airport because he had just arrived from Cebu.
“Still inside,” Dylan answered.
“Ok-ok.”
“Mr. Del Fuego.” Wallace handed him a tissue that he found in the hospital.
“Thanks.” He wiped and then looked at the door. “How long are they inside?”
“It’s been two hours,” Dave answered because I couldn’t answer.
“Too long.” I saw him worried so I worried even more. “Please God, don’t take her from me. I might die.” Oh damn! How can I calm down if her daddy is also worried? Worse than me.
“Mr. Del Fuego, don’t worry too much. Your daughter is strong. That’s easy for her.”
“My wife is strong too, but she left me with my son.” It didn’t say anything on its own so the four of us looked at each other. “I don’t want it to happen to my daughter.”
“Dad.” Of course, even if he didn’t tell me I already knew what he meant. I was even more nervous for my wife.
“But your wife is different from your daughter. You have no idea how strong and wise she is. She can do everything, she won’t let anyone or anything defeat her,” Dylan reassured us.
The door opened and Keisha came out. They greeted it calmly while I and daddy just stayed where we were.
“Hey!” Dylan called me so I came too.
“How is my sister-in-law, doc Keisha?” Dave asks because I can’t ask even daddy just wipes his forehead.
“She’s ok. She has been stitchers by another doctor.”
“Stitched? Did she have surgery?” Keisha chuckles at what I asked.
“No Mr. Dy, she was stitched up because she was cut so the baby could come out.” Ok damn, I am clueless, but I don’t mind as long as I heard that my wife is ok, I feel relieved. I also saw daddy gasp.
“How about my niece?” Dylan asks.
“She’s very healthy. As of now, other doctors do newborn screening. Congratulations Mr. Dy.”
“You’re really reliable sweetheart,” Dylan winked at Keisha and she just smiled before going back inside.
I felt like a thorn was pulled out by what he said. Thank God and they are both healthy.