ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Cross Pov

I tried to get my works done without thinking about what happened earlier at home but it just kept coming back to my mind, I wondered what I did to make her upset, one moment we were cool, and the next we are fighting, I couldn’t help but think that I said something that might have offended her and instead of staying to find out I left her at home, some kind of husband I am, my mom would probably beat me up if she hears about this.

My birthday was coming up this Friday and I wanted us to spend the weekend together, I already rented a cabin house in finger lakes, right now I don’t know if that’s gonna happen again, I really wanted us to go out, I tried thinking back to our discussion to find out where I went wrong but nothing clicked, I just couldn’t pinpoint what pissed her off which made me moodier, lately, we have been peaceful and coexisting just fine, I have gotten used to having her around, her in my bed every waking moment, I just didn’t like the thought of us fighting, I looked up as my secretary walked in.

“Sir, the clients from Dubai just called that their flight was delayed so they can’t make it today,”

My secretary Jane said. I have been waiting for them to arrive and they haven’t even left their country, wow.

“Sir?”

I heard Jane call and remembered I haven’t given her an answer.

“That’s okay Jane, just make sure to check up on them regularly and make sure they get the best when they finally arrive,”

“Okay, sir,”

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“I dropped them on your table, see them,”

She said showing the files to me, I didn’t know when she dropped them, well because I wasn’t in my right mind.

“Okay, thanks, you can go,”

“Okay, sir,”

She said and went back to her office, now that the clients I was expecting from Dubai weren’t coming in today, I didn’t have much to do, my mind went back to my wife, she would probably still be in school or would have gotten home, it was already past two pm in the afternoon, I really wanted to know how she was, I tried calling her line but she didn’t pick up, which means she was still pissed, I hated fighting with her.

“That’s why you should have stayed and demanded she tells you what’s up,”

I scolded myself, dropping the file I had been trying to work on, I picked on another, and it went on for hours, after trying and failing to concentrate, I decided to just ditch work, I called up Dean and told him to meet at our usual spot, told my secretary I was off for the day and left.

“What’s up? Calling me in the middle of the day for a drink is so unlike you,”

Dean said when he entered our usual drinking bar, I beckoned on him to seat down, he did after taking off his watch.

“I just needed to clear my head and I don’t like drinking alone, you know that, and besides, it’s after five so it technically evening.

“Yup, so what’s up? Trouble in paradise?”

He asked.

I called on the waiter to serve us some drinks before looking at Dean who was watching me with curious eyes.

“What?”

I asked.

“I should be asking you, what is going on, you look moody,”

“Katherine and I fought,”

“Oh, trouble in paradise then, what caused the fight?”

“I don’t know, I have been trying to figure that out but nothing, I can’t come up with what I did or said that offended her,”

“You could just ask her though,”

“I did okay, I asked but she said nothing was wrong yet she didn’t let me take her to school and she was certainly upset when I left home, called her while I was at work and she didn’t take her calls,”

I said taking a big gulp of the alcohol the waiter served.

“Honestly, I can’t help you, I don’t understand that gender either, the one I know is not helping either when she wants to show up, she does, and when she doesn’t want to, she doesn’t, I was surprised to see her yesterday after she ghosted me for one whole month when I asked all she said as she is an adult and can take care of herself like I never said she couldn’t though, I tried talking to her and she completely shut me out, I am this close to shopping her ass,”

Dean complained, I knew he was talking about Grace, she is more stubborn and hard-headed than Kathy, in fact, compared to her Kathy is an angel, I can’t imagine myself having to deal with someone like Grace, the few times we have met she was cold and unfriendly to me.

“You guys still haven’t made up?”

“I just told you she just came back after ghosting me for almost if not more than a month, the only reason she showed up yesterday was that her last and final court sitting is in two days and we have to go see her lawyer together.”

He said frowning, Grace was really doing the most to Dean, he was all gangster and alpha male until she shows up.

“Look who is talking,”

The voice in my head whispered and I couldn’t deny not when her not talking to me could keep me in such a bad mood, I couldn’t deny that the little witch had a hold on me.

“I hope this will be her final for real and hopes she doesn’t end up in jail,”

I said.

“I hope so too, honestly, I can’t let her go to jail, she won’t make it and she will hate me for life and I can’t live with that,”

He answered he looked genuinely worried.

“You love her don’t you?”

“Of course I do, I watched her grow remember?”

“No, I don’t mean like that, I mean like you love her as in romantically,”

“No I don’t, I mean she is important to me, and I don’t see her as a younger sibling any longer but I am not in love with her,”

“Are you sure? Feels to me like you are head over heels for her,”

“I am not, I am just concerned for her, not to mention her family helped me a lot so technically I have to pay back,”

“If you say so,”

I said not buying what he said, dude was in love with her and I was super sure.

“What about you? Are you in love with your wife?”

“No,”

I replied almost immediately, I wasn’t in love with Katherine, I can never fall in love with her or anyone other woman, I respected her and liked her but that’s it.

“Are you sure, because right now you are acting like a man in love to me,”

“I am sure,”

“Alright, if you say so,”

He said and we sat and drank in silence, even if I wanted to I couldn’t love Kathrine, there was only one woman I have loved and my heart went with her when we broke up ten years ago and that’s Ginna, no other woman has been able to make me feel, not even Katherine.

“Have you heard from Anna recently?”

Dean asked breaking the silence, I was grateful for the distraction as Anna is a safe topic, the thought of her made me smile, so far she has been doing great and was scheduled to go back to school in less than four months, her due date was almost close.

“Yes, I spoke with her last night before I went to bed, she is fine,”

“That’s good to know, I have not been able to keep up with her the last time we spoke was two weeks ago and she wasn’t so fine then,”

“Yeah, she okay now, mom said she is doing better than she did when she was pregnant with me,”

I explained, he shook his head in understanding and we were back to silence again, we didn’t say much but his present calmed me down a lot, by the time we finally parted ways at about nine pm, I made up my mind to apologize to Katherine when I get back home, even though I still didn’t know what I did to offend her because I was a little tipsy, I called a cab instead of taking my car.

When I entered the house it was silent, I went straight upstairs, hoping she was in our shared bedroom ans thankfully she was there sleeping so peacefully, I silently left and went to take my bath in the other room to avoid waking her up, when I came back, I walked up to the bed and sat on the edge on her side, she had a frown on her face even in her sleep, I felt bad for being the reason she was sad and unhappy, I wanted her to always be happy and have that healthy smile I have come to know her with, I gently touched her smooth face and she let out a sigh in her sleep, I expected her to wake up but she didn’t, she just held on to my hands and went right back to sleep, I smiled and continued tracing a part on her face with my fingers, she had a perfect face, long ear lashes, lips that looked just as it tasted, thoughts of her lips and I bent down to drop a kiss on them.

“What have you done to me?”

I whispered staring at her, she must have done something to me, that’s the only explanation as to why just looking at her, pecking her made me feel so fulfilled and satisfied, could do be that I love her? There was no way that would be it, I would know if I feel love for her, it’s just the alcohol confusing me, I don’t really feel a thing for her, she turned in her sleep and opened her eyes, staring at me almost as if she didn’t recognize me or something…