016 Broken heart
Ava Della Sanchez
I couldn’t see any sight, became blurry from the food, my whole eyes became so peppering that I nearly lost my sight, I staggered to walk but I coulsee. I tried finding my way using my sight but Sherly pushed me to Nickolaus while Nickolaus pushed me back.
They suddenly made me an object of caricature, I feel hot tears pouring down my eyes, and my whole body screams out for help. I wanted to cry but I lost my voice. I can’t. I need help. How could they treat me this way? All I ever did was love Nickolaus. Why is he doing this to me?.
I was still staggering when I heard their footsteps fading away, I slumped down on the bare floor, trying to find my way, I know I probably look like a mess right now, I felt rejected that I hate my sight right now, I look so pathetic “Just tell me why I can’t stop loving you?” I screamed out in pain, hot tears mixed with pain that’s all I feel right now. I was still crawling on the bare floor when suddenly I felt someone hold my hand, I lift my eyes to see who it was but the pain tripled
“Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!” A scream escalated from my mouth
“Calm down honey it’s me” I heard madam perky’s voice
A sudden feeling of relief washed through me, ” Thanks ma” I muttered
“It’s okay honey, come let’s get you cleaned up,” She said to me and I nodded, she help me up on my feet and lead me towards the guest room probably because Nickolaus and Sherly are making use of our room right now, and that alone brings me heartache but I think at this moment, I should be more worried about me.Material © of NôvelDrama.Org.
I wave off the feeling and focus on getting myself cleaned up, especially my eye.
Madam Perky led me to the bathroom and helped me clean my body off. I decided to take a shower while she waited for me outside. As I laid down in the bathing tub, I reminisced about what happened earlier, and it got me thinking, did I make the right decision? I don’t know I’m even confused, it’s not been up to a year and this is happening. How long can I last? Can I endure any further?
I don’t know but no matter how many times I ask myself this question I know I don’t have the answer to it. I stood up from the shower and wrapped myself in a towel. Walking out of the bathroom, I saw madam perky sitting down on the bed waiting for me, I smile and sat beside her, I took hold of her left hand in mine, and caress it lovingly
“Thanks for helping me today, I don’t know what I would have done without you, it means so much to me,” I said looking into her eyes.
“Can I say something child?” She asks tenderly, I find myself nodding my head with a smiling face. She heaved of sigh of relief and patted my palm which is under hers
“Sweetheart sometimes, we won’t get the things we want in life, and at times it’s unfortunate because we are the greatest but because of their ignorance they fail to see and understand that we are the ones that truly loved and cared for them…”
“You speak like you have been through this before?” I ask with a raised eyebrow
“Just remember this, it’s good to love someone, but then… It’s bad when you lose yourself in the process of loving someone. It’s not good to quit, but when you’re fighting alone… quitting becomes the best option, think about this and always remember your happiness should be your priority” She stood up and kissed my forehead before walking out.
I don’t know-how but what madam perky said is stuck in my head, and it got me thinking, have I been putting someone’s happiness first before mine? And the answer is yes, I love Nickolaus so much that I have been acting foolish, I don’t know but he’s slowly turning me into a lunatic.
Feeling tired of thinking, I stood up and started making my way towards our bedroom. I need to change this towel. I know that right now they’re probably lying and cuddling there, I’ll just pick up my clothes and leave. Walking towards our room, I realized that my body feels tired, maybe because I’ve been stressing a whole lot lately and that is really taking a great toll on me, I can hardly recognize myself.
I stopped in front of our room and made to pull the doorknob when I saw that the door is opened, I pushed it inside and step in, but my legs got stuck on the floor on seeing the scene before me, right in our matrimonial bed is Nickolaus naked with Sherly, feeling pain is an understatement because right now I’m shattered and wanted nothing but to flee from here, hot tears stream down my eyes, throbbing headache steps in, my heart begins to reverberate like a tornado, my whole system burns with furry making me want to murder somebody.
“Nickolaus……….!!!!!!” I screamed in anger and pain, but then they acted like I wasn’t there and they continued with their doing not minding my presence and my broken heart, fighting back my tears, I sniff continuously and staggered to the closet, I managed to pick out my cloth and wore them, I came back and Sherly is now on top of him riding him.
I smoked out fake tears, knowing that this is all my fault. “Nickolaus…” I called slowly, he continued with what he’s doing but I know he’s listening.
“Nickolaus you have pushed me away so many times I never left, and I ask myself why? I hope the day you turned to look for me you’d never find me” Not bothering to turn back I left with a broken heart, needing some fresh air.